I have debated over writing this post for many years and am finding myself editing even this first sentance. I am severly dislexic. I can't even spell the word after 38 years of living with it. My goal is to give the OCD editors a glimpse into what it feels like to live with what my barin sees. The post may not make sence, but it's how my brain sees letter and words.

THere are a number of books to get over what I suffer from, and I still plan to overscome this - but the reality i can't see letters in my head. I can reciete bethoven symphonies by ear, see colors in my mind for many years after seeing them and match them to paint swatches, but I can't see words, letters, music notes, adn for the life of me I can't remember how to spell sometimes even the simpliste of words.